This past month has been quite the roller coaster of emotions for me. As many are aware of, my Dad had open heart surgery to replace a bad valve in his heart. I'm glad to say that he is back home and recovering quickly. I learned a lot about myself, and my family during this trial and I got a much stronger testimony of relying on my Heavenly Father to help get us through the tough times.
Colin and I arrived on Tuesday, April 9th so we would be able to spend the next few days with my Dad. Another thing I was thankful for is that my Dad was able to get a blessing from a family member, my sweet husband. My Dad just has us girls, but since I got married, he now has a son-in-law who can give him priesthood blessings. The first week I was home, my parents were in Phoenix. They left on a Thursday, surgery was the next day on Friday (Friday the 13th for that matter, thank goodness we aren't superstitious!) and a week after the surgery he was home. One of the hardest things I've ever had to see in my life was seeing my dad in excruciating pain. To make it worse, there was nothing I could do to make it go away. All I could do was pray and ask Heavenly Father to help my dad have the strength to deal with the pain, or if it was His will, to relieve it a little, which He did both. To make everything harder, I didn't have my husband with me. I had to be the strong one for my sister. I had to be her shoulder to cry on. Thankfully I had a lot of people praying for me as well and that gave me the strength I needed.
To add even more to the mix by the time I got to my parents I was 12 days late, for the second time since I've been trying. The surgery wasn't enough to stress me out to that extent because I KNEW everything would be alright, it wouldn't be easy, but it would be OK. Time went on and still no period, and no positive pregnancy tests either. This is also happening the month where I have reached my "been trying for a year" mark! I even got a blood test done and it came back negative. Today, 35 days later, I still have no period or positive test. I have now missed 2 periods, not just 1. I do however FINALLY have a doctors appointment! I'm praying they will be able to help! It is a giant leap forward after this last month of stepping backward.
This part of my life has been far from easy, and it's still not over. But I am so thankful for a Heavenly Father who cares and listens to our prayers AND answers them. I am thankful for family and friends who give love and support during our trials. With Heavenly Father and my family and friends by my side, I know I can get through anything!